If only she could speak.


February : ; rewind and placed.
He faced me everyday before he leaves and when he returns home yet I remained unnoticed.
As time goes by I learned to enjoy my spot. The first to bask in his daily emotions as he collects and dumps his personal belongings around me.
April : Won $1000 from sweepstake.
May: His first A-
Everyday: SCHOOL
July: second A-
August: Got his drivers license

My spot became the gateway. Once an outcast, now the envy of the 35mm films around me.
October passed with the mutter of Pubbbblisshh youur year…square coompetitooonnn! My heart skip a beat, could this be the wake up call my owner needed.

November came and everyday I pray that I would yield results to re awaken his love for square.
Square was his first step into photography.
Square made him organize Holga Singapore Tour 09!
Square rocked his life.

I am a Kodak EPP 120 film who is still living on my owner study table.
For nine months I remain the only 120 film used by him.
For nine months I remain unmoved, undeveloped.
Those nine months have been a roller coster of emotions.

P.S. Your Holga misses you.

written by azzzy on 2010-11-04


  1. niko_fuzzy
    niko_fuzzy ·

    i feel like crying. :'(

    nice article written.

  2. venusattack
    venusattack ·

    yes very touching indeed...*blinking back tears*

  3. chrius57
    chrius57 ·

    azzz why so emo!?!

  4. bao_wei
    bao_wei ·

    Very touching n meaningful article!

  5. adbigmilk
    adbigmilk ·

    You should shot him ! A good film is a shot film ;)

  6. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    Thanks for the comments everyone!

  7. nural
    nural ·

    Wait, the roll is still not developed?

  8. elletra
    elletra ·

    i want to see the photo results!

  9. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @nural yes still not yet developed. she's still living on my study table.

  10. adi_totp
    adi_totp ·

    keep shooting! :)

  11. cheeso
    cheeso ·

    All you need to do is name her.

  12. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    stand by everyone. sequel coming soon.

  13. krssyfu
    krssyfu ·

    Diary of a Forgotten 35mm Film, anyone?

  14. herbert-4
    herbert-4 ·

    Rescuing Ophelia, Film Version??

  15. faisal_aziz
    faisal_aziz ·

    sweeeeet <3

  16. norya
    norya ·

    nice!!!! azzzyyy.. great bumping into u... the square story,.. very touching!!!! cant wait for the sequel.. keep me posted so that i can read it

  17. ripsta
    ripsta ·

    nice,sad and sweet....

  18. amsyarhilman
    amsyarhilman ·

    Go and get it developed ! :D

  19. handyhardian
    handyhardian ·

    My Diana would have screamed it out load...with slightly changes...

  20. jet
    jet ·

    Good point of view narration...

  21. kontrast
    kontrast ·

    Really great !

  22. b_and_w
    b_and_w ·

    woooooow....!!!!!!!!!! *.*

  23. marant69
    marant69 ·

    I want the novel! ;-)

  24. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    Send the roll to the lab today. part # 2 will hopefully be tonight!
    thanks for your likes and comments everyone.

  25. quaisoir
    quaisoir ·

    yeay!!!finally it gets developed....if all my film could talk they'd be nagging at me right now! LOL

  26. metzgor
    metzgor ·

    show us the results when the film is back.. ;-)

  27. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @quaisoir hahaha i tink gissy 220roll in her holga will nag the most!

  28. stonerfairy
    stonerfairy ·

    hahahahah NICE!!

  29. pietrone
    pietrone ·

    great!! but i won't make some of my cameras read this, they can join together and found a party :)

  30. laurasulilly
    laurasulilly ·

    very nice! curious to see what's actually on the roll when you have it developed!

  31. superlighter
    superlighter ·

    this is LOVE!

  32. artichekt
    artichekt ·

    very nice words! curious to see the results!

  33. rdp_ribeirense
    rdp_ribeirense ·


  34. larahacefotos
    larahacefotos ·

    wow! very nice and sweet!

  35. quaisoir
    quaisoir ·

    @azzzy omg that 220 roll is gonna be ancient when she's through with it! LOL

  36. mikahsupageek
    mikahsupageek ·

    sweet, well chosen words ! looking forward on seeing the photos !

  37. remi-boiteux
    remi-boiteux ·

    This rocks. Keep shooting -and writing !

  38. lihooi
    lihooi ·

    yea i wanna see how she turns out to be too!!! ^^

  39. zenline
    zenline ·

    It's a beautiful story Azzzy ! We speak all through our lomo camera, but if rolls could speak to our place, they would have it things to be said !
    I look forward to seeing the result ! :)

  40. dive-angel
    dive-angel ·

    I want to see the photos :-) My films are in the refrigerator. That would also make a nice story.

  41. grazie
    grazie ·

    coo entry azzzy!

  42. chouks
    chouks ·

    Great !!! Love it ! :)

  43. cinzinc
    cinzinc ·

    i have a few cameras and films in this situation :(

  44. weedos
    weedos ·

    My holga misses me too :-(. Time to give her some love I think.

  45. yochan
    yochan ·

    Nice and sweet

  46. eskimofriend
    eskimofriend ·

    my first holga is on her way to me :)
    I hope we can see this film again when he developed into negatives :)

  47. oceros
    oceros ·

    Wonderful piece!

  48. biergoggles
    biergoggles ·

    My Holga really does miss me. I haven't shot with her in like 2 weeks.

  49. sammy_a
    sammy_a ·

    if only i had a holga to be missed by.. great article

  50. gabrielasoares
    gabrielasoares ·

    love it!

  51. antibiotyx
    antibiotyx ·

    nice! sounds like my holga cfn's rantings too. i haven't used it in a long time.

  52. hburgess
    hburgess ·

    First time i read it i was a bit confused
    Second time... I Loved it.

  53. flanflipflop
    flanflipflop ·

    Please don't ignore the 120 what would we do without him you only need to see the results he can make through a serious camera - sorry Holga i still love you.

  54. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    Thanks everyone your your likes and comments!

  55. stouf
    stouf ·

    Holga forever.

  56. eva_eva
    eva_eva ·

    T.T u reminds me my Holga misses me too :(

  57. wallflowersforjane
    wallflowersforjane ·


  58. basho
    basho ·

    Come on, man! Give her another chance!

  59. 231189
    231189 ·

    yeah la, why so emo!!

  60. nicholasdavidchoy
    nicholasdavidchoy ·

    nice... gotta write this for about 9 other cameras in my cupboard

  61. bearxiangz
    bearxiangz ·

    interesting perspective!

  62. zezefan
    zezefan ·

    sweet and unbearable longing for her!

  63. eatcpcks
    eatcpcks ·

    sweet and nice text! we need the pictures now

  64. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    thanks everyone! she made it to 100 likes!

  65. quaisoir
    quaisoir ·


  66. mdh
    mdh ·

    Oh... Once I found a very old film. It happened when i was finishing university and the pictures were from the time of my prom!

  67. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @mdh old rolls are full of surprises.

  68. r0drig0
    r0drig0 ·

    the magic old roll

  69. renaishashin
    renaishashin ·

    Very nicely written bro!!! Post the next chapter please :DD

  70. susielomovitz
    susielomovitz ·

    haha! greeeeeat!

  71. dakadev_pui
    dakadev_pui ·

    i feel T.T

  72. davidpowell
    davidpowell ·

    Like it! very sad, i hope she gets developed soon. Maybe there will be some interesting results from leaving it for a while. I know i have films like this in my drawers, waiting to be developed. Thanks for checking out my stuff.

  73. atria007
    atria007 ·

    niceee 8)

  74. maijomoll
    maijomoll ·

    i think my diana is feeling the same.. :) tomorrow ill bring it with me!

  75. jandra
    jandra ·

    hehee! great!! since I have the Sprocket, my Hrizon feels like your poor Holga....

  76. rastablues
    rastablues ·

    good article! lindas palabras!*

  77. realmustache
    realmustache ·

    poetic. kinda reminds me of toy story :(

  78. bravopires
    bravopires ·

    Must try this film...

  79. hotdustyroads
    hotdustyroads ·

    sadistic.... hahah

  80. angelays
    angelays ·

    really sweet!

  81. megs79
    megs79 ·

    you should cross process her, she deserves some special treatment after such neglect;)

  82. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    for those that have not check out part # 2! its here www.lomography.com/homes/azzzy/blog/374-if-only-she-could-s…

  83. devilno1
    devilno1 ·

    liked it!

  84. kerpella
    kerpella ·

    I love the last line! Hopefully you pay more attention to her now :P
    If my LC-A+ RL (I named her ChARLie) could talk, I think she would be saying "I need more action! Take me out more!" I'm sorry ChARLie...

  85. am3thyst
    am3thyst ·

    good stuff dude!

  86. juliouz
    juliouz ·

    very gd n the sentence are very detailed.. nice blog...

  87. denisben
    denisben ·

    well done ! best. denisben

  88. ngliaong
    ngliaong ·

    Heylo!!! ..... Just too good an article ....

  89. ngliaong
    ngliaong ·

    Heylo!!! ..... Just too good an article ....

  90. cyanwater
    cyanwater ·

    so much sentiment!

  91. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @chrius57 hahah im not emo man, you know me for 11years yet you still dont know me that weill.

  92. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @adbigmilk ive shot her. the results are here in the second blog www.lomography.com/homes/azzzy/blog/374-if-only-she-could-s…

  93. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @adi_totp yes i will keep shooting man!

  94. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @adi_totp yes i will keep shooting man!

  95. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @cheeso i've yet to name her. maybe jessica?

  96. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @faisal_aziz thank you!

  97. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @norya thanks for the likes and comments.

  98. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @ripsta yeah agree. will let u know more about my ipoh trip soon.

  99. azzzy
  100. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @handyhardian haha then use her! so she wont be like my film.

  101. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @jet thank you.

  102. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @kontrast thank you!

  103. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @b_and_w thanks!

  104. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @marant69 there might be a part 3 coming soon! what i did with her spool.

  105. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @pietrone hahah you never know what they might be saying behind your back!

  106. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @mikahsupageek thanks man
    @remi-boiteux i wll man, this is the beginning.
    @lihooi results are here! www.lomography.com/homes/azzzy/blog/374-if-only-she-could-s…

  107. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @zenline yeah if only our rolls could speak, after all they are the soul of the camera and what makes our camera tick!

  108. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @dive-angel yeah it would be interesting. 0 degrees film waiting to be used

  109. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @grazie thanks!
    @chouks thank you!

  110. cindi1601
    cindi1601 ·

    you can do it azzzy! love the story.

  111. usefulidiot
    usefulidiot ·

    Someone knows what I'm going trough each day at work, in my lab&shop, hundreds of 135 and 120 films who are crying, waiting for a camera... I work hard to find them someone to match their burning desire, hell yes !

  112. subwayshocker
    subwayshocker ·

    so touching and i love the perspective of it! time for me to bring my holga out again too.

  113. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @eskimofriend hope you're enjoying your holga!

  114. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @usefulidiot you work at the lab! thats so freaking awesome. and you're like film santa. getting those films home to lovely owners!

  115. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @usefulidiot you work at the lab! thats so freaking awesome. and you're like film santa. getting those films home to lovely owners!

  116. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @usefulidiot you work at the lab! thats so freaking awesome. and you're like film santa. getting those films home to lovely owners!

  117. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @subwayshocker thanks! ive never seen you use your holga before.

  118. i_am_four-eyes
    i_am_four-eyes ·

    very well-wriiten! ... Oh! I miss my Holga ! It's time to bring her out soon!

  119. gissysux
    gissysux ·

    omg fantastic article! If I didn't log in I wouldn't have known!

  120. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @gissysux haha thanks. havent seen you on lomography in awhile. how u been?

  121. gissysux
    gissysux ·

    I've been fine, got like 5 rolls to develop now, plus that double roll for your competition. Oh yes, and I wanted to tell you, I feel very honoured to be in your profile pic also! *lol* Now that you're so famous!

  122. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @hahaha pls ah, im not famous. you're even better. your face will forever represent magnum icecream. uncle mike will be a happy man when u go process. how your 220 roll?

  123. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @gissysux hahaha pls ah, im not famous. you're even better. your face will forever represent magnum icecream. uncle mike will be a happy man when u go process. how your 220 roll?

  124. gissysux
    gissysux ·

    Oh ya man, completely forgot about that! But side view, cannot see. My 220 roll ah, can die. LOL, did I tell you? The film was STUCK when I was in china. Stuck like.. somebody glued a strip to the roll! Imagine.. toilet roll.

  125. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @gissysux ouch! then how? uncle mike shld be able to see whats wrong in his dark room. he most likely go blah blah. hahah, havent develop even on of your china roll right?

  126. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @gissysux and yes uncle mike got a new helper!

  127. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @hburgess im glad you read the article a second time.

  128. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @eva_eva grab your holga, load a roll and run happy with it.

  129. gissysux
    gissysux ·

    I realised I forgot to explain. I mean, like toilet roll, when you first have the part that sticks the first piece of your roll to the other pieces? The first sheet is a bit stuck to the roll? And when you go one round, the same part is stuck a bit also? YES, it is like that, but SO stuck that my holga advance wheel couldn't advance!

  130. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @basho already developed her. results here www.lomography.com/homes/azzzy/blog/374-if-only-she-could-s… enjoy

  131. gissysux
    gissysux ·

    Oh oh, and ooo, is it that young boy?

  132. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @gissysux oh well. sounds you're really screwed. plenty of like leaks. hmm maybe you can still save it? but you'll have to shoot the roll again. and double all the shot u have taken.

  133. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @gissysux yup dam young. always smile smile. polite all. that time i go. uncle mike was teaching him how to scan pics. maybe uncle mike want to retire?

  134. ngliaong
    ngliaong ·

    Emo baby!!! I am so going to get a life time supply of ... ya u know what ... OK!!!

  135. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @ngliaong hahahha okie! just dont take away my lca can already!

  136. ngliaong
    ngliaong ·

    ehh.... u said LCA anytime if i wanna borrow hor ...

  137. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @renaishashin chapter 3 coming soon! stay tune.

  138. gissysux
    gissysux ·

    Actually I covered up the back and left a LITTLE gap, very little, so that I'd get light leaks. But now.. I kinda opened up the back in desperation in the airplane towards china. Probably got major exposed, so I pray the backing saved it a bit. I dunno man, I feel soooo lazy to fix it. I'm also worried about the batteries that have been living in there for ages, I'm afraid they'll leak!

  139. ngliaong
    ngliaong ·

    why i cant like the blog like ... x10times?

  140. gissysux
    gissysux ·

    *lol* Ehh, and I dunno lah, maybe he just wanted to help out for fun. I can't imagine uncle mike retiring! I had a roll problem right, and his daughter didn't know how to help me. At first I didn't see uncle mike, so I was so sad. Then suddenly when he walked out, it felt like a hero came to save me. But the boy.. LOL, I just think he was looking at me a lot. MAYBE also because I was wearing a red polka dotted shirt.

  141. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @gissysux oh crap. if the battery leak then no one will process. though u might get a some random effect. and tell me how to improve my blog article? im planning to write a part #3. should i?

  142. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @gissysux hahah yes uncle mike likes to hide at the back and make an entrance.

  143. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @ngliaong hahah you like it so much, wait your birthday i print your you make like a book.

  144. ngliaong
    ngliaong ·

    hahaha opps .. thats aint a surprise anymore =.= ....

  145. gissysux
    gissysux ·

    LOL, no lah, I was more concerned with the spoiling of the flash thing inside if my battery leaks. But I think should be fine. This kind of thing happens only when its been in there for YEARS, or in very hot conditions. And a part #3 ah.. only if you feel passionate about it? If you have another message to put through. If no more, then leave it while it's good. :)

  146. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @gissysux hmmm i think about the part 3 later tonight. wish u all the best for your holga

  147. gissysux
    gissysux ·

    Thanks man. :) And I hope you do well for this! If you do part three, all the best too!

  148. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @gissysux thank you so much!

  149. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @flanflipflop im sure your holga still loves you!

  150. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @davidpowell she's been developed. here 's the result and part 2 of the story www.lomography.com/homes/azzzy/blog/374-if-only-she-could-s…

  151. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @jandra horizon still my dream camera.

  152. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @rastablues thank you!

  153. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @realmustache i love toys story.

  154. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @bravopires they're no longer producing kodak epp. it use to be my most favorite film.

  155. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @hotdustyroads thanks man!

  156. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    9 hours left to lomography blogathon. thank you for all your likes and comments!

  157. chrius57
    chrius57 ·


  158. chrius57
    chrius57 ·

    IN memory of tim aka ' the guru"

  159. chrius57
    chrius57 ·

    IN memory of tim aka ' the guru"

  160. igarashi87
    igarashi87 ·

    You're an inspiration. Not only have your words and passion moved me it has inspired me.

  161. fudgeball
    fudgeball ·

    loving this from downunder. makes me wish i had a holga.
    christmas present anyone? :D

  162. ellespea
    ellespea ·

    that's great! love how you wrote from the film's perspective....hmmmm...speaking of which....my holga has been sitting at home with some film in it....need to take pictures!!!

  163. il_fungo
    il_fungo ·

    Everyone of us have the personality that reflects in a type of film! I'm a colour slide :D

  164. arose
    arose ·

    brilliant article!

  165. iamherenow
    iamherenow ·

    you make me want to shoot more!

  166. iamherenow
    iamherenow ·

    lots lots lots more!

  167. mottty
    mottty ·

    thanks for telling me that u wrote this article. love it!

  168. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @chrius57 hahahah thanks dude

  169. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @igarashi87 thank you, im glad i could have inspired you!

  170. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @fudgeball hahah thought you want a ring flash for christmas?

  171. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @ellespea yeah! go take pics. dont let your holga collect dust like mine did.

  172. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @cyanwater thank you!

  173. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @juliouz thank you!

  174. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @kerpella hahah thank you. and yes shoot more with your LCA

  175. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @arose thanks!

  176. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @il_fungo hmmm im forever a slide person.

  177. santacuz
    santacuz ·

    loving it!

  178. santacuz
    santacuz ·

    the link to the part 2 of your blog dont seem to be working. help!

  179. pankponk
    pankponk ·

    you should really write more.

  180. silenceisnevereasy
    silenceisnevereasy ·

    just like my nick. silence is never easy.

  181. puppiesexpress
    puppiesexpress ·

    cant seem to open the part #2 as well.

  182. puppiesexpress
    puppiesexpress ·

    awesome awesome article!

  183. cus53
    cus53 ·

    all the best. hopefully your future rolls wont end up like this one.

  184. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @santacuz link shld be working now
    @puppiesexpress link should be working now.

  185. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @cus53 thanks alot!
    @puppiesexpress thanks alot!

  186. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @silenceisnevereasy yes its never easy
    @pankponk thanks alot

  187. reneg88
    reneg88 ·

    i swear i thought i had liked this! hehe i remember loving it the first time i read it, being intrigued as to who's perspective was being shown, and remember going like "woah that's cool" when i came to knowing it was a film. good luck! and may LSI send us each Sprocket Rockets haha!

  188. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @bao_wei thanks man

  189. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @ ymmij thanks for liking!

  190. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @niko_fuzzy dont cry man. see you soon for outings.

  191. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @venusattack thank you!

  192. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @cheeso ive decided to name her JESSICA!

  193. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @reneg88 hahah thanks man! its been a crazy 5days. im sure we took LSI blogs to a whole new level!

  194. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @ratnor thanks man!

  195. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @superlighter thanks

  196. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @everyone THANK YOU!

  197. natalieerachel
    natalieerachel ·

    This makes me wanna take my Holga everywhere with me so it won't be lonely :O

  198. sang_nila_utama
    sang_nila_utama ·

    Great morning to start off after reading tis story...

  199. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @natalieerachel that would be really sweet of you

  200. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @sang_nila_utama thanks

  201. roseflorian
    roseflorian ·

    wow! this is art! thanks for doing this!

  202. azzzy
    azzzy ·

    @roseflorian thanks for your sweet comments.

  203. sharoneeee
    sharoneeee ·

    beautiful!! really touching!! love it *.*

  204. scrabbyknees
    scrabbyknees ·

    it's time to take her out again :)