Most of us live our lives hoping that “something wonderful” would happen to us but if they don't come, we can always turn to the smaller stuff.
Whether we want admit it to ourselves or not, most of us live our lives hoping that “something wonderful” will happen to us. You know what I’m talking about – that one defining, extraordinary moment or event that makes up for all the bad stuff we’ve endured in our lives.
The thing is, that wonderful something that we dream would happen to us one day rarely ever comes. Or at least, it doesn’t necessarily come for all of us and if it does, it usually happens to somebody else. And even if that “something wonderful” does happen to us, it’s not actually forever.
I am not saying this to burst anyone’s bubble or put a damper on things. I’m just saying this because it’s true. Not all of us can have that shining Kelly-Clarkson-singing-A-Moment-Like-This moment. But that’s not necessarily a bad thing. That’s just reality. That’s just life.
I’ve had something wonderful happen to me before. I was ready to give everything up just to keep it. But it was one of those something wonderfuls that did not last; it was heartbreaking for me to watch it slowly slip out of my grasp but nothing I did changed what was already inevitable.
So these days, I keep my expectations to my minimum, which I think helps a lot. I hope for the best and expect the worst; this way, when the best does happen, it feels amazing and when the worst comes, it doesn’t feel as bad.
These days, I happily dwell on the small stuff; you know, stuff like seeing both ends of a double rainbow while driving through heavy traffic or having a hummingbird hover behind you for one full minute, checking to see if you’re made of pollen. Or, even taking a chance on a rare, completely unheard of film on eBay and then finding out that it’s one of the best decisions you’ve ever made!
I call these the mini wonderfuls. They’re nothing life altering, nothing defining; but they’ll definitely make your day just a little brighter. And the best thing about them is, you won’t have to work as hard to make them happen. They’ll come to you.
You just have look closer.
Inspired by that rare, and as it turns out gorgeous, Agfachrome 50L film from eBay that I took a chance on. All shots in this article were shot with it. All shots were taken in Los Angeles.
All photographs by Michelle Rae. She lives, breathes, and haunts in the City of Angeles.